Never mind, forget I said that.

Thinking you’d trade places with someone instead doing whatever work or rehabilitation you have to do , kinda contradicts my earlier statement that I have to live what I have done to myself, and that I have to do whatever work I need to do in order to recover physically, mentally, bodily, etc.

It makes a difference when you accept that bodies break down and that we die someday, and lonely more often than not – at that.

Entertaining other thoughts is foolish escapism.